S. Epatha Merkerson
reads an excerpt from Andrew Sean Greer's third novel, The Story of a Marriage, published in May by Farrar, Straus and Giroux.
We think we know the ones we love.
Our husbands, our wives. We know them—we are them, sometimes; when
separated at a party we find ourselves voicing their opinions, their
taste in food or books, telling an anecdote that never happened to us
but happened to them. We watch their tics of conversation, of driving
and dressing, how they touch a sugar cube to their coffee and stare as
it turns white to brown, then drop it, satisfied, into the cup. I
watched my own husband do that every morning; I was a vigilant wife.
We think we know them. We think we love them. But what we love turns
out to be a poor translation, a translation we ourselves have made,
from a language we barely know. We try to get past it to the original,
but we never can. We have seen it all. But what have we really
understood?
One morning we awaken. Beside us, that familiar sleeping body in the
bed: a new kind of stranger. For me, it came in 1953. That was when I
stood in my house and saw a creature merely bewitched with my husband’s
face.
Perhaps you cannot see a marriage. Like those giant heavenly bodies
invisible to the human eye, it can only be charted by its gravity, its
pull on everything around it. That is how I think of it. That I must
look at everything around it, all the hidden stories, the unseen parts,
so that somewhere in the middle—turning like a dark star—it will reveal
itself at last.
The story of how I met my husband; even that’s not simple. We met
twice: once in our Kentucky hometown, and once on a beach in San
Francisco. It was a joke for our whole marriage, that we were strangers
twice.
I was a teenager when I fell in love with Holland Cook. We grew up
in the same farming community, where there were plenty of boys to
love—at that age I was like those Amazonian frogs, bright green, oozing
emotion from every pore—but I caught no one’s eye. Other girls had boys
falling over them, and although I did my hair just like them and ripped
the trim off attic dresses and sewed it on my hems, it did no good. My
skin began to feel like clothing I had outgrown; I saw myself as tall
and gawky; and as no one ever told me I was beautiful—neither my mother
nor my disapproving father—I decided that I must be plain.
Excerpted from The Story of a Marriage by Andrew Sean Greer.
Copyright © 2008 by Andrew Sean Greer. Published in April 2008 by
Farrar, Straus and Giroux, LLC. All rights reserved.